Cycle 9

Cycle nine came exactly when expected and was expected. The past month has been full of frustration and longing. DH and I's one and only bathroom "decided" it needed a re-model. The sink stopped draining and the plumber couldn't figure it out and gave us a couple options. A new kitchen ceiling (no kitchen for who knew how long) or bath re-model because the floor had to come up! Well after two weeks with an interesting floor, we now have a new sub floor and a working sink and were only with out the bathroom for a day. The new floor should get instaled with in the next week or two, just waiting on some help. We bought a tongue and groove solid bamboo floor, we have everything else picked out thats going in but we have to wait until some funds find their way to us.
Our nephew turned one this month and we were able to spend some quality time with the little guy. We also got to see a child hood friends four week old little girl. She is the tiniest thing I have ever held. I felt such longing while holding her. It was the first time I have experienced that feeling while being front and center around my friends and family. I had a hard time concealing  all of the emotion that was welling up. I could tell DH was experiencing the same feelings as he held the new born as well.
 For cycle 10 I've decided to start temping in conjunction with checking CM. I think its time to start focusing more on what my body is telling me verses just going with it kinda like we have been. I keep having this feeling like its going to take a long time for us to get what we want and it only gets worse as the calender counts down the days until DH's job comes to an end (it's grant based).  There seems to always be something that is putting us down lately.

Chemical Pregnacy, Miscarriage?

I'm not sure really whats going on, AF arrived this morning. I had some light cramping last night as I went to bed but nothing I was worried about, I just assumed it was stomach cramps vs. AF cramps. Today though, its defiantly from AF.
Could I have been pregnant? Yes and no. I had yet to get a BFP, I was going to test tomorrow as it would be a full five weeks since my last period. I'm thinking though that I am have a miscarriage of a chemical pregnancy. Only so because I normally never have cramping and AF didn't start out like normal with a small bit of spotting followed by a 12 hour wait. I've had constant cramping since waking accompanied by heavy bleeding (for me).

Cycle 9 will be better