Cycle 20

I was a bit surprised when my period arrived today. I have had severe breast tenderness and sensitivity for about the past three weeks ever since I ovulated. I just had this feeling that I was going to get a BFP. But alas it was a BFN this morning when I took a test thinking that I was. I was going to have the best Christmas, well anything is better then last Christmas. I had the flu on Christmas and then was two weeks late and very grumpy. I guess I just have to wait for another new year to come around and maybe this will be our year..

I finally had my follow up doctors appointment this week. Not to much went on, we talked briefly about how the last two cycles went. How this is a new "job" the DH and I and we need to make this our top priority during as DH calls it "my egg drop".  You see my doctor basically told me that we wasted this cycle because I was down state with family bridesmaid dress shopping and DH was home hunting during the "egg drop".  Getting pregnant is our top priority but if we are not each other for a few days and that happens to be at the "egg drop" then so be it.
My doctor is having us do three more rounds of Clomid. He has tasked me with documenting everything on paper verse my phone.. When I bleed, take the clomid, have sex, what cervical mucus i have each day, and what I am feeling throughout each cycle.

Cycle 19

Round two is gone and done. As of right now I will not be doing a third round until after I have my next appointment which isn't until the 26th of this month. I really picked up on the fact that I have gotten some bad cramping with taking the Clomid as well as hot flashes and some mood swings. It was a real disappointment this month again.

cycle 18

The first round of clomid didn't work. I can't say I'm not disappointed because I am. Not nearly as much as DH is I'm sure. He has been asking me every day since the "egg drop" as he likes the call it, when we can find out if the clomid helped and we are pregnant. And every day it made me smile and made me hope inside that it could happen this month.
I have this feeling that for as much as we want this pregnancy I am going to suffer and have a horrible pregnancy when it happens.. Nothing like my sisters or any of my friends, I will just be miserable the whole time. DH and I recently watched What to expect when expecting, I feel I will be more like Elizabeth Banks character then her mother in laws.

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I am writing yet again to complain about another close friend that has recently reviled that they are expecting again. Just as their first little one turns one they are pregnant again. If there are those of you who are going through what DH and I are then you may know the bitterness we are feeling yet again. And if you aren’t going through what we are then please keep your comments to your self.

DH and I are through round one on clomid. We were luck (yes I said we) that I only had some hot flashes and a couple small mood swings. DH might tell you a little differently when it came to the mood swings. I felt there was only one real big one and he was the root cause of it. Not sure if we are out of the clear yet or if symptoms continue throughout the month or only last as long as you are taking the pills. I guess this is where I would pause and actually research my question and then come back and rephrase that. Seeing how I am sitting at home where we currently only had the gas and electric hooked up that’s not going to happen until I manage to go some place with wifi. Until then I am stuck wondering and typing in word until I can get my fix in.

Cycle 17

We got the results of DH’s sample back this week it also came with a bit of embarrassment.

When he went to drop the sample off at the lab for analysis he ends up waiting for over an hour then comes to find out that they don’t do analysis’ there anymore. I don’t know how many “we are so sorry” he had to sit through, but he was just a tad frustrated. I ended up calling my doctors office about it and was treated to another large round of “we are so sorry” but that they sill wanted me to come in latter that week for my appointment.

At the appointment come to find out they were able to do the “test” that he wanted. Which was to just find out if there were viable sperm not to give a full analysis. And the news is… good. Since finding out that DH’s surgery worked, my doctor decided to go ahead and do some blood work on me. I was also lucky enough to have started my cycle that morning so my doctor also wanted to not waste this cycle and started me on my first of two rounds of clomed. And to go back in, in two months if I wasn’t pregnant and the clomed didn’t help.

It really seems like it’s going so fast right now with starting the clomed. Just my second appointment with him and we haven’t even really discussed treatments or drugs yet. Its what I wanted. To either find out something was wrong and try to get/have it fixed or to get a jump-start like this. 

Hopefully cycle 17 or 18 turn out to be lucky.

infertal?

 

So I had my first appointment with my OB about our possible infertility. It went as I had expected it to go and better. I was a little nervous about seeing a male doctor. Okay let me rephrase that, I was VERY nervous about seeing a male doctor. I haven’t seen a male doctor since I was in grade school; I’ve gone to a female doctor ever since I started having a yearly exam. He did a good job at making me feel comfortable talking with him and once I was about to talk freely with out feeling emotional I felt better about having him as my doctor.

So after getting my medical history and talking about the possibility that I could have PCOS we also got to talking about DH’s possible problem. When he was younger, he had surgery to correct a varicose vein blood flow problem with his “boys” (they were getting to much blood). My doctor concluded that the first step is to get a sperm sample to see if the surgery worked and he has viable sperm. If the sample is good and there aren’t problems there then we get to look into if I do have PCOS or some other underlying condition.

I think DH is not going to be very happy with me when I tell him that he has to abstain from sex or relieving himself for 48 full hours before giving a sample. He is currently off bear hunting and won’t be home until Tuesday and I told the doctor that he would give a sample for Wednesday morning. At least we will know by Thursday the results.